Give Me Liberty Or Give Me Sin

The Torah teaches us that if a man sells himself into servitude the contract expires at the shmitta year. If the servant wishes, however, he may extend his service with his master until the year following the seventh shmitta, the yovel year. This extension is not without its price – the servant's ear is pierced.

Chazal, as quoted in Rashi, comment that the servant deserves this ear piercing because he obviously failed to heed the word of Hashem that he heard from Har Sinai.

This castigation is more appropriate for the second circumstance of forced servitude – the thief. He stole and cannot pay back so he is compelled to 'work off his debt'. When the shmitta year comes he should rejoice at his freedom. If the thief opts to stay on until the yovel he is actually demonstrating that he believes that the theft wasn't all that wrong – after all, how wrong could it have been if the resulting 'punishment' is one he would freely choose ? For that the thief deserves to have the ear that heard "Thou shalt not steal" pierced.

What of the man who went into servitude of his own free will ? What message from Har Sinai did his hearing fail to process, that he should merit a piercing at the point when he displays his affinity for the master / servant social order ? "For Bnei Yisrael are my servants", said Hashem, and not servants of other servants.

But what's so bad being someone else's servant ?

The underlying root of servitude is control. It's not a working contract, whereby one party agrees to render services to the other party. It's a declaration of (near) total subservience to another person. Why would anyone, of their own volition, relinquish their freedom and acquiesce to a state of servitude – what would they gain ?

Every state has advantages and disadvantages. While freedom carries with it the obvious advantage of self determination, it also carries the responsibility for the morality and justice of that determination. A person giving up that freedom is also saying goodbye to that responsibility, the responsibility of exercising that determination correctly. It is this action that the Torah felt needed to be punished with a piercing.

Hashem created us in His image and placed us here in this world to improve ourselves and the world around us. Our single most powerful tool is our divinely mandated free choice. One who willingly deprives himself of this tool is truly ignorant of the lessons of Har Sinai.

And what of us ? We can take heed from the eved ivri – cherish our freedom and realize that the responsibility that we must exercise along with our freedom is both a testament to Hashem's great faith in us – and a major part of our service to Him.

Hatzlacha !!

In My Face

In the second commandment Hashem instructs us not to have any other gods. It seems this commandment is limited to a particular location - "על פני". While the simple meaning of this condition is not to have other gods in place of Hashem, we can also translate it to mean "in my face".

Hashem is sending us a subtle message. The polytheistic idolatry that was the mainstay of the Egyptian society was very accommodating of other gods. The incompatibility in belief systems lay in the necessary exclusivity. Egypt could accept that Hashem existed - what they couldn't accept was the turf infringement.

And so, Hashem seeks to remind us that it is "perfectly acceptable" to believe in and worship other gods if we do it outside His jurisdiction. But since no such place exists this is actually a reinforcement of a pivotal lesson - the same lesson that the Shulchan Aruch begins with - "שיוויתי ד' לנגדי תמיד " I place Hashem before me always.

Hatzlacha !!

Do We Stand For Or Against ?

The Ramban comments that there is a lesson to be learned from the specific animal that Hashem chose to be sacrificed in eternal commemoration of the exodus from Mitzrayim. The Egyptians worshiped the sheep. Moreover, the very constellation that reigns high in the sky during the month of Nissan is the sheep (or Aries). The act of slaughtering the sheep for our korban Pesach displays our belief that the gods of Egypt are empty gods, and also that the exodus was not "fated by the stars". It wasn't the act of any given power or constellation that plucked the Jewish nation from bondage - but Hashem, and only Hashem.

While it is important to always know what you stand for. It is equally important to demonstrate, quite clearly at times, what you stand against. Were we to simply trumpet the role of the Almighty in the exodus without specifically renouncing the "power of the stars", later generations may have come to the erroneous conclusion that they are both responsible for the salvation !

In today's age of pluralism and globalism this lesson is perhaps all the more poignant. I must know what I believe is true - but no less important is what I believe is false.

What ideas do you stand against ?

Hatzlacha !!

By What Name Does Redemption Go ?

Two quick thoughts :

1. The Parasha and Sefer that details the descent into exile is known as Shemos. Why does the Torah emphasize that the names of Bnei Yisrael were important ?

Because the names and the keeping of them were a pivotal factor in the maintenance of Jewish self identity that les the yidden to be redeemed. Hashem always, but always, prepares the salve before inflicting the wound.

Secondly, the sefer is referred to by the Ramban as the sefer of the galus and the geulah. A quick look at the Parshios of Shemos shows us the the Ramban is teaching us that the building of a Mishkan to house the shechina within our camp is the final redemption from an exile so spiritually depraved as mitzrayim.

By this token we can ask ourselves - in what exile are we currently languishing ?

What will symbolize our redemption ?

What are we doing about it ?

Hatzlacha !!

The Slings and Arrows of Outrageous Fortune

Yaakov Avinu instructs his son Yosef in the art of Jewish warfare. He mentions that he took the city of Shechem with his sword and bow [see bereishis 48:22]. The targum Onkelos transalates this to mean "with my prayers and [heavenward] requests".

Why does Yaakov Avinu refer to his teffilos as instruments of war ?

Because when a Jew steps up before his Maker to offer up words of praise or request it is the most powerful force in the universe - as such the yetzer hara is constantly trying to de-rail his concentration. In battle we never lose focus of the enemy - in davening we should never lose focus of He before whom we stand.

In another, deeper analogy, we may understand two types of prayers.

Teffila is an outpouring of praise and thanks to Hashem - and like the sword that Yaakov represents it with - the more effort you put into the strike - the deeper it will go. But the bow of requests is another story - in order to make the arrow fly farther - I must pull the bow further towards myself ( in fact - towards my heart). The more I internalize the truth that without Hashem granting me my requests, no force on earth ( or above it) will make them come true - the greater distance towards heaven my requests will fly.

Hatzlacha !!

Unfaded Glory

"And Yitzchak loved Esav for he placed game in his mouth and Rivka loves Yaakov"

The passuk hints to us an important lesson - the love that one can feel for physical pleasures - is always in the past tense - it's always fleeting. The feeling of joy that we may experience during a bite of delicious food fades even as we swallow it.

The love that Rivka Imeinu felt for her younger son had nothing to do with physical pleasure. When we experience emotions that are based on our intellectual capacity for recognizing and pursuing goodness - those are feelings that last. That's why they are forever in the present tense.

Hatzlacha !!

Anna Avda D'Kudhsha Brich Hu

The Aramaic phrase :

אנא עבדא דקודשא בריך הוא

I am a servant of the Holy One, Blessed is He.

Is found in the quote from the Zohar that we say as we take the Torah out of the Aron Kodesh (בריך שמיה)

Why is being a servant so important, so praisworthy - as to place this declaration in the midst of this teffilla ?

The answer appears to us out of the Parasha.

Eliezer's story is repeated twice. Once when Avraham commands him and he undertakes the journey and once when he recounts it to Lavan. In justification for this seeming redundancy chazal offer the following maxim - "יפה שיחתן של עבדי אבות יותר מתורתן של בנים" - "The conversations of the servants of the fathers are more beautiful than the teachings of the sons". Why should this be the case ? Because when you are a servant you have no arrogance. You are filed with the knowledge that your entire worthiness, your entire 'claim-to-fame' is the service you offer to your master.

May we all merit to internalize this unassumingness - not because of any inherent unworthiness - quite the opposite, we are incredibly worthy ! - but because we should realize what our worthiness is - the job we were destined for, Avodas Hashem.

Hatzlacha !!

Beyond Our Natural Abilities

If the command to sacrifice his son, Yitzchak, was a test for Avraham - why do we refer to it as the akeida (binding) of Yitzchak ?

Additionally, we find that Hashem considers it as if Yitzchak was actually sacrificed instead of his doppelganger ram and the ashes from the sacrifice are forever before His eyes. (See Rashi on Vayikra 26:42)

Along the journey to the mountain Yitzchak asks his father about the absence of an animal to slaughter and deduces from the answer that he is to be the sacrifice. Yitzchak continues on the journey with the same drive and motivation as before - this is an opportunity to fulfill the will of Hashem - and he intends to give it his all. When it comes time to present himself at the altar, Yitzchak has a strange request for his father.

"Tie me down tightly", he pleads, "for I fear that I might involuntarily flinch at the application of the knife and disqualify the slaughter".

With this statement, Yitzchak transcends himself and is forevermore held by Hashem as a pure soul.

Avraham Avinu was tested many times. He passed each one. Even the hardest test - the one where he had to conquer his nature and subdue his merciful inclinations. But Avraham passed these tests himself.

Yitzchak Avinu - he was aware of his physical limitations and took pains to make sure that even if his body should fail the challenge of presenting himself for slaughter, his soul shouldn't. Essentially, Yitzchak made sure to succeed even if he couldn't succeed and pass even if it was beyond him.

"Our Father" Yitzchak is thusly called because his actions are legacy to us all. We can all emulate him, in our own degrees, and - when the going gets too tough in avodas Hashem - persevere. Not through iron will and strength of character ( those are good too ! ) but through our ability to forsee the challenge and take pains to eliminate it entirely. We can, essentially, pass an impassible nisayon.

Yitzchak Avinu said to Hashem – "I don't want my shortcomings to affect my service of you".

Can we say the same ? And what will we do to make it happen ?

Hatzlacha !!

Strings and Straps

When Avraham Avinu flatly refuses any of the spoils of war offered him by the king of Sedom - he states - "I will take not a string nor a shoe strap".

Chazal comment that this action earned Avraham's descendants the string of techeles and the straps of teffilin.

Avraham Avinu was a paragon of Chessed - and as a direct result, we - his children - are tremendously inclined towards kindness ( so much so that a lack in this regard calls one's Jewish roots into question ). However we may along the way need reminders to stave off the ever present human selfishness that screams in our hearts - "what's in it for me?!".

So Hashem gives us two mitzvos that are referred to as signs or memory aides. The strings of techeles ( "... and you shall see them and you shall remember all the mitzvos of Hashem ...") and the straps of teffilin ("... and it will be a sign against your heart ...").

So next time we feel the ever present pull of greed - remember - we're above that - we are the children of Avraham. Besides - both Mitzvos represent ways to bind yourself to Hashem - would you really want some petty materialistic thing to get in the way ?

Hatzlacha !!

In The Shade Of The One Above

The Vilna Gaon discusses the particular appropriateness of the date we celebrate Sukkos by calculating when the Divine Presence ( Shechina ), and with it the Clouds Of Glory ( Annanei HaKavod ), returned to the Israelites after the Sin of the Golden Calf.

The final and complete atonement for the grievous breach was received on Yom Kippur ( thus setting the stage for Yom Kippur to be a day of atonement for all time ). Following that – the Israelites were commanded to build a tabernacle so that they would have a constant reminder of Hashem's presence in their midst ( and would not feel the temptation to create foreign representations of divinity ). The building drive took two days – and on the third day of the drive the Jews were told to stop bringing gold and other materials – there is a sufficient amount. (See Shemos 36:3-7).

So, on the 11^th of Tishrei the mishkan project was unveiled. On the 12^th and 13^th the building drive took place. On the 14^th, the Jews were told that no further materials were needed. And on the 15^th, the mishkan began to be constructed – thus returning the shechina to Israel.

Therefore, on the 15^th of Tishrei we sit in Sukkos in order to recreate the divine presence that was felt in the desert.

May we merit, this year, to truly rest beneath the holy shechina in our sukkos and may we see the coming redemption, speedily and in our days, amen.

Hatzlacha !!

A Rasha Is(not) As Rasha Does

The prophet Hoshea declares, in this weeks stirring and famous Haftara :

" שובה ישראל עד ד' א-לוקיך כי כשלת בעוונך "

[הושע יד:ב]

"Return, Israel, unto the L-rd you G-d, for you have been stumbled by your sins"

[Hoshea 14:2]

Hoshea is asking, no more and no less than, full and complete teshuva – a return to an intimate relationship with the Creator, without the static and baggage of trangressions. And what mechanism does the Navi offer to reach such a vaunted goal ? The following realization :

You have been stumbled by your sins.

Seemingly simplistic – this concept actually alludes to a deeper idea that can form the backbone for the most meaningful and complete teshuva.

When temptation strikes and defying G-d seems like a viable prospect – there is an underlying cause. A drive and a want to achieve something. Be it a release, or a comfort or even an indulgence. The reason we go through with our illegitimate plans is because it seems the best way to satisfy that drive or want. When we realize that - if it goes against Hashem's wishes – then it must be counterproductive in achieving our goals – we have come a long way.

The Prophet speaks to us – your sins are not bringing you the joy and comfort that you crave – they are only stumbling blocks to true happiness !

When we internalize this message we will be firmly established on the path to teshuva – a path that leads, ultimately, to Hashem Himself.

Hatzlacha !!

Are We Men Or Are We Sheep ?

בס"ד

The Mishna in tractate Rosh Hashanna mentions that in the heavenly judgment we pass before G-d "like b'nei maron". The Gemara [Rosh Hashanna 18a] asks what the meaning of this unique phrase is – and answers with three possibilities.

One - sheep. Two – those who pass through a narrow winding staircase. Three – the soldiers of Dovid Hamelech's army.

While explanations two and three refer to people and even sound a mild chord of comprehension, explanation one is particularly perplexing. We may be seen individually – like those climbing a steep and narrow staircase – and we may be judged on our willingness to put our life on the line for the glory of Hashem – like good soldiers should. But why sheep ? A sheep is not responsible for his actions – he doesn't have the capability to choose good over evil.

Because a sheep is the ultimate example of an animal that is led.

We are really sheep. We are constantly being influenced and led in all different directions. If, in fact, we are led – then what remains as a fair criterion of judgment ? We aren't responsible for our actions – since they are the product of those forces that lead us – not our independent thoughts.

But as opposed to sheep – we choose our influences. Yes, we are led – but we choose the lead we wish to follow.

And that is exactly what we are judged on. Not necessarily our end-product actions – but our primary choices. The choice we make before the influence becomes all pervasive – the choice to allow this influence admission into our lives.

May we, and all of klal yisrael, make only proper choices. May we focus ourselves only on influences that will bring us closer to the Ribbonno Shel Olam and His mission for us in this world.

Wishing all a Happy, Sweet, and Torah-full year.

Hatzlacha !!

Happiness or Else ...

In the harsh words of rebuke known as the Tochacha there is a famous passuk that traces the source of all of our national woes and tragedies.

" תחת אשר לא עבדת את ד' א-לוקיך בשמחה ובטוב לבב מרב כל"

"Because you did not serve Hashem your G-d with happiness and a good heart despite having it all"

[דברים כח:מז]

Literally, the passuk actually says that we will be thusly afflicted - "In exchange for" our lack of divine service.

How can we understand this barter ? If I give you something you can give me something in return - and if I refrain from giving you something - then you will, in exchange, refrain from giving me something. What can the passuk mean ?

Olam Hazeh is not only a smorgasbord of mitzvah opportunities - it's also a gauntlet of nisyonos. Every success is wonderful - but every failure, in parallel, is horrible. When we do not serve Hashem we are actually performing an act - an act of rejection - and the price of that rejection on the divine barter scale is the terrifying curses mentioned in the Tochacha.

May we be zocheh to dedicate our efforts to the proper service of Hashem - and may all of our currency be the positive kind.

Hatzlacha !!

Seeing in the Dark

"לדוד ד' אורי וישעי ממי אירא ד' מעוז חיי ממי אפחד"

תהילים כז:א

"A song of David, Hashem is my light and my salvation, whom shall I dread; Hashem is the strength of my life, whom shall I fear."

The Malbim points out that referring to Hashem as a light is best understood as a protection against the unknown. When we are faced with a hidden adversary or challenge – light is the best assistance, enabling us to see that which we need to overcome.

In this phrase, however, is a subtle nuance which gives us a valuable insight. Light doesn't only enable one to see – it also tints the visible field and may obscure some hues while bringing out others in sharp contrast. In short, light doesn’t only show us what there is to see, but also how we see it.

Metaphorically too, ideas or events can be understood totally differently depending on the context, or the light.

By calling Hashem his light, Dovid Hamelech is telling us that any other light will give a false gleam and may produce shadows or angles that aren’t there. Only seeing things by the light of Hashem is sure to result in seeing the world as it really is.

In this month of reconciliation between us and our Father in heaven, let us redouble our efforts to see only the emes in this world of sheker and intense, heartfelt service of the divine is sure to follow.

Hatzlacha !!

(Service of) G-d Is In The Details

"... והיה עקב תשמעון"

[דברים ז:יב]

"And it will be in exchange for your observance ..."

[Devarim 7:12]

Rashi quotes the well known Medrash that Hashem is not asking for regular observances - rather that we be so meticulous so as to perform even the mitzvos that are normally ignored (or trampled underfoot -as hinted by the double meaning of the word "עקב" which also means heel).

Is Hashem telling us that divine blessing will only be ours if we have a perfect mitzvah score ? What about small or inadvertent mistakes ?

There are two kinds of things that normally get stepped on - items that you didn't notice, and wouldn't have stepped on if you had, and stuff that you saw, but considered it trivial to step on it anyway.

The first type of item is usually stepped on with the toes or the pad of the foot - it takes a concerted effort to step on something with your heel - that is commonly saved for the second category of underfoot garbage - you know it's there - you just don't care because it is nothing significant.

Perhaps the medrash is alluding to this difference as well. If we overlook a mitzvah by accident (thereby stepping on it) we have not necessarily done something awful. True, we overlooked something - but it was unintetional. That would not invalidate my eligibility for the divine bounty. It is only when I mash something down with my heel - when I know that this is a Mitzvah, and for my own reasons (affected by my desires, no doubt) do I choose not to observe it - then I am disqualifying myself from receiving Hashem's blessing.

May we all be zocheh to see all the mitzvah opportunities that abundantly surround us - and further zocheh to observe them and bring the highest divine blessing - the geulah sheleimah, amen.

Hatzlacha !!

"... And much Gold..."

Moshe alludes to the fact that the Eigel was worshipped because of the excess of gold that the Jews had from the plunder at the splitting of the sea.

In hard times we could view this as a divine blessing - with an abundance of material wealth we are faced with the challenges of idolatry - because it is 'something to do'. Without it - we are too focused on praying to the true G-d that we have no time for foolish frivolities.

May we be granted all the wealth we need - but no more - lest we be tempted to pursue foreign goals.

The same could be applied to a wealth of time. In the summer months when those who are still in a school setting have extra time - be extra cautious - and watch out for pursuing "golden calf-like" leisure activities just because they are "something to do".

Hatzlacha !!!

We Have The Power !

Just a quick idea - Bilaam, prophet of doom and defilement, is blessed with the power to grant divine favor (beracha) or displaesure (kelalah).

The mouth who composed love sonnets to his donkey and never spent a moment in honest supplication to his Creator - had that power.

Just imagine - what power do we have ?!

Hatzlacha !!

On Spirits and Servants

When Moshe Rabbeinu sends the meraglim out he knows that there is a potential for disaster. Addressing his principal disciple, he prays "may the One above save you from the wicked counsel of the other meraglim" [See Bamidbar 13:16 and Rashi ad loc] Additionaly, Moshe Rabbeinu invokes greater protection for Yehoshua by changing his name from Hoshea to Yehoshua by adding a letter of the divine name (a yud).

There were two spies who did not fall prey to the plot to vilify Eretz Yisrael – Yehoshua and Calev. We know by what merit Yehoshua was saved - the varied methods set up by Moshe Rabbeinu. But we must ask – by what merit did Calev escape ? This question becomes especially poignant when we consider our own trials.

We don't all have the zechus of carrying a letter of Hashem's name with Moshe Rabbeinu's blessing.

The passuk describes Calev's actions with the following telling phrase.

 [במדבר יד:כד]

"ועבדי כלב עקב היתה רוח אחרת עמו וימלא אחרי והביאתיו אל הארץ אשר בא שמה וזרעו יורשנה"

"And my servant Calev, since he was possessed of a different spirit, and he filled himself with following my directions, and I will bring him to the land that he went to and his descendants shall inherit it"

[Bamidbar 14:24]

Following Hashem's directions seems to be a pretty straightforward solution – we are certain to avoid wickedness if we stay on the right path. But what will keep us there ? Two things.

One – being possessed of a different spirit. If we merely do the mitzvos because it's what we do – then what can I do prevent misdeeds when I am struck by a whim or notion to do so ? If, however, we have a strong guiding spirit – then even in the face of social adversity ( like peer pressure, societal/cultural pressure, etc. ) we will be able to do what is right.

So how do we get this guiding spirit ?

Like Calev, we fill ourselves with our mission of following Hashem's instructions. Not halfway, not even ninety percent is enough. We must be one hundred percent filled with our dedication. We usually know what is right – it's just a question of right for whom. What is right for me as a kid may not be right for me as a parent. And what is right for me as a person hanging out with this group may not be right for me hanging out with another group. The ultimate test, however, is what is right for me as an eved Hashem. That's what gave Calev the indomitable spirit that was the equivalent of Moshe Rabbeinu's blessing and even a letter from Hashem's name – the unshakeable self identity of an eved Hashem, a servant of  G-d.

So perceive yourself as an eved Hashem – and when that's what you have looking back out at you from the mirror – fill 'er up !

Hatzlacha !!

Complaining... Badly.

"ויהי העם כמתאוננים רע באזני ד'..."

[במדבר יא:א]

"And there were those in the nation who were complaining badly in the ears of Hashem…"

[Bamidbar 11:1]

 

One would almost think that there is such a thing as complaining, but not badly. What was the great sin of the complainers ?

They complained of the travails of the journey. They had had three straight days of travelling and that was too much.

There is a saying – "You can answer a question, but you can't pacify a complaint". The entire mentality of a complaint is beyond the realm of logical reasons. That is because the complainer doesn't want an answer – they want to demonstrate their just displeasure.

So we see that a complaint against G-d is a horrible thing – it essentially negates the good that G-d does for us and brands the complainer as a total ingrate. But why does the passuk specify that this was a bad complaint – is there such a thing as a good one?

Yes !

Earlier in the parasha we saw the "complaint" of those who were impure and couldn't bring a korban pesach. They came before Moshe and said "Why should we be left out?" Essentially, they were complaining that there was this statute that forbade them from serving G-d – "It's not fair!"

But this complaint is good – because it doesn't negate our obligations to Hashem, rather, it emphasizes them. And Hashem recognizes this. That's why in response to the pesach complaint – Hashem created a holiday ( Pesach take two ).

So whenever we feel the need to "complain" to Hashem – try to take a step back and analyze the complaint – is it good ?

Hatzlacha !!

He's Got Our Back

The Ribbonno Shel Olam is constntantly taking care of us.

This is never more evident than when He wants to give something. When a man bestows a gift upon another - he is simply concerned that the gift be appropriate and well received. There is no way for a person to follow up and make sure that the gift is acctually having the desired effect of making the recipient's life better. 

Hashem, however, is different. When He grants us the "triple blessing" of the kohanim - Hashem actually, subtely, doubles each bracha.

"יברכך ד' וישמרך" - Hashem will give you blessing, but He will also guard you to ensure that that blessing is not taken from you.

"יאר ד' פניו אליך ויחנך" - Hashem will shine His presence upon you - all your actions will be blessed by a divine seal, but He will also grant you grace so that others do not feel your blessed actions are ill deserved.

"ישא ד' פניו אליך וישם לך שלום"

Hashem will show you favoritism, but He will also grant you peace so that others who are not shown this favoritism are not alienated by it and do not hold it against you.

May we be zocheh to see the doubling of all berachos in our lives - and may we hear these berachos echiing in the halls of the beis hamikdash, bimhaira beyameynu, amen.

Hatzlacha !!

A Healthy Kabbalas HaTorah

Chazal learn from the pesukim [Shemos 20:15 & Shemos 19:8] that there were no sick or disabled Jews at Har Sinai, rather they were all cured.

Why ?

Was Hashem going to prevent the Jews from ever falling pray to these things in the future ? No. So why not get us used to things as they will be instead of creating an artificial haven ? If we will be responsible for keeping the Torah under these conditions – shouldn't we also receive the Torah under them as well ?

No.

I can't receive the Torah bogged down by illness or cluttered by preconceived notions – I must accept it as a tabula rasa, a clean slate.

If I see the Torah as a band aid to solve my problems, as an all purpose "Dear Abby" -  then when the going is smooth I would feel justified in ignoring it completely (Chas VeShalom !)

I must realize that while the Torah holds solutions to all of life's little problems and has priceless guidance to offer on coping with all of the difficulties that come up – that is not its primary purpose. The Torah is there to teach us what to do and how to serve Hashem, especially when things are going right !

This Shavuos, let's not look for how the Torah can fix our lives – let's plan our lives around the Torah and in this zechus may we merit to see the centrality of the Torah in our tragedy and sickness free lives, amen.

Hatzlacha !!

The Greatest Trail

To paraphrase a great quote – it's not what the view looks like from the top that counts, but how you climb the trail that really matters.

As anyone remembers from the last time they stirred off the couch or the computer chair to hike a trail or a mountain climb – there is a certain thrill, a proprietary feeling of accomplishment and possession when we finish or reach the top. The view just wouldn’t be the same if we hadn't sweated our way up there.

Why ?

Because a view that is given to you with no effort represents just a minute of your time – "look, here is a minute – isn't it beautiful ?! OK, let's move on …". A view that you have been climbing towards for an hour is that much greater because it encapsulates all that investiture. And for several hours or even days – all the more so.

But, the thrill and nachas of the accomplishment fade. Even the greatest peaks in our toil still gradually move to the background of our consciousness. What makes the longest lasting impression ? The effort itself.

This also distinguishes the 'men from the boys'. The lesser person will push himself solely for the goal – and may often as not find that it does not live up to his demanding expectations. The greater pursuant – he will give it his all, not just because he wants to finish, but also because he sees the effort as a worthwhile endeavor in and of itself. The true measure of the person becomes, not the ability to attain the goal, but rather – the affection they feel for the effort. The lesser one will hate every step – seeing it as a cumbersome toll to be grudgingly given. The greater one will cherish the effort itself – understanding that the effort and goal are a package deal.

This is the meaning of Rashi's comment ( from the Medrash ) "If you shall walk in My laws [Vayikra 26:3] – this is referring to toil in Torah study".

When we recognize that the trail to Torah knowledge and observance has the most breathtaking summit – we become true devotees, not only of the peaks – but of the grueling trail all along the way.

Hatzlacha !!

Broken Boxes

The service of the lechem hapanim, or show breads, is described in the end of the Parasha [Vayikra 24:5-9]. When describing what the loaves looked like, Rashi tells us [commenting on Shemos 25:29] that they were similar to a box or crate with two of it's sides broken open – resembling a loaf that has two 'faces' that seem to peer in each direction.

Why use an analogy of a broken item to describe the holy loaves of temple sacrifice ? Could we not have figured out a different, more respectful way to refer to them ? And how, exactly, are we to understand the sharp contrast this forms with the mizbeach, whose animal sacrifices had to be perfect and without blemish. Or even the Menorah, whose oil was to be the purest of the pure ?

Rashi, it seems, is emphasizing an important aspect of the lesson we are meant to derive from the lechem hapanim.

The lechem hapanim symbolized the ability to serve Hashem through wealth. As the gemara states [Bava Basra 25b] "One who wishes to become wealthy should focus his prayers on the north" ( because the Shulchan was in the North of the Mishkan).

If it represents monetary wealth, what exactly is the shulchan doing in the mishkan to begin with ? Well, there are many ways to serve G-d, it is easy to serve out of poverty – for if you voluntarily accept poverty in your dedication then you must be doing it for G-d. But we are left in confusion as to the nature of service through wealth – do I just acquire money and pay a lip service ? Do I employ a righteous zeal and attempt to amass great wealth in the name of G-d ?

We can perhaps compare serving Hashem through wealth with serving Hashem by eating, in much the same way that divine service through poverty is akin to fasting. What does 'eating for G-d' mean ? It means that I acknowledge that G-d is the source of all of this bounty (the easy part), and I only indulge for the sole purpose of experiencing His beneficence so that I might praise Him more devotedly (The difficult part).

Now we understand the challenge the Shulchan presents – but our clarity still falls short regarding the analogy of the lechem hapanim to broken boxes.

While service through wealth is difficult, it is by no means impossible ( See Dovid HaMelech or Rav Yehudah HaNassi ). But this service differs in one more important way from other forms of Avodas Hashem. It is fundamentally lacking. While the prayers we say and the Torah we learn, and even the tears we cry, have an eternal quality about them and they will remain forever attached to our immortal souls; the physical wealth we amass, even in a sincere act of divine dedication, will still return to dust as our bodies do after our time on this earth is up.

So, in recognition of the value that their inherent temporariness gives these items that are used in acts of divine service Rashi connotes them as 'broken boxes'.

May we be zocheh to serve Hashem truly, with our wealth as well as our deprivation, but may we never forget the eternal nature of the purely spiritual side to our worship and the temporality of the physical one.

Hatzlacha !

Divine Service Or Stomach Service ?

BS"D

 The Torah [Vayikra 17:1-7] teaches us the prohibition of outside slaughter, bringing a sacrifice to Hashem outside of the delineated boundaries of the Mishkan. If someone were to violate this law the Torah ascribes to him an unusual appellation; murderer.

I can understand that one who transgresses a law should be considered guilty or even wicked. But how does a misplaced sacrifice make him a murderer ?! 

If we are to worship G-d, then the operative part of the relationship is our subservience to Him. That's what worship is all about. If we want to serve G-d, but on our own terms, that is unacceptable.

I remember hearing a story ( first hand ) from a Rav who came upon the hired cantor, whom he was hosting for Yom Kippur, drinking a hot cup of coffee in preparation for the 'service'. "It's for the throat," he excused himself sheepishly. Needless to say, the cantor did not lead the congregation that day.

But why a murderer ?

Someone that serves G-d on his own terms is really serving himself. If he will take the life of an animal as part of his worship scheme – what's to stop him from taking the life of a man when he believes that G-d 'calls' for it ?

Chazal also compare embarrassing someone to killing him. When we see our friend doing something inappropriate – how do we tell him ? Is our intention to shame him ? Or do we really seek to help him see and correct his mistake ?

This is contingent on the same question – if it is about me – I may want to "one-up" my friend – if it is about G-d – then my competitive feelings are totally out of place.

Let's take the lesson of the improper slaughterings and apply it, not only to our relationship with our creator – but also with our fellow creations.

Hatzlacha !!

Temporary Holiness

BS"D

Holiness is derived from abstinence. "קדש עצמך במותר לך". When one separates themselves from a given luxury or indulgence – a certain level of holiness is achieved. Yet, we are not a religion of meaningless asceticism. Dedication of a pleasure or an indulgence to a higher goal is even holier than refraining from it completely, as is evidenced by the consumption of intoxicating wine in a procedure known as "Enacting Holiness" – that is, "Kiddush". Colloquially, this can be described by the phrase – "It is harder to eat for G-d, than to fast for G-d".

So, for a week, we refrained from the more pleasing chametz in favor of the less palatable matza. This was, in addition to a commemoration of the exodus from Egypt, an act of holy abstinence. But, we have now returned to eating leavened bread. How are we to relate to our state of temporary holiness ? Was it a brief interlude from 'real life' – designed to shake us out of spiritual stagnation and then return us refreshed into our lives to resume business as usual ?

I say, no.

To view Pesach as a battery recharge would be to deny the lesson of holiness by abstinence. During Pesach we practice this holiness as we willingly forgo the tastier chametz. But in order to achieve the next level in our service of G-d – we must translate that effort into a greater holiness. If the chametz we eat in our post Pesach state is identical to the chametz we ate before, then it is nothing more than chametz she'avar alav haPesach – ( Chametz that was owned by a Jew illegally during Pesach and is therefore prohibited ). But if we manage to generate new eating procedures – whereby we dedicate ourselves and our eating to the service of G-d ( instead of our gut )  - the we have translated the temporary holiness of Pesach into a lasting one of the year 'round.

Hatzlacha !!

Some Pesach Posts can be found here :

http://prepesachprepatoryponderings.blogspot.com/

Hatzlacha !

A Spiritual All-Nighter

בס"ד

 "צו את אהרן ואת בניו לאמר זאת תורת העלה הוא העלה על מוקדה על המזבח כל הלילה עד הבקר ואש המזבח תוקד בו:"

[ויקרא ו:ב]

"Command Aharon and his sons, saying, this is the instruction for the Olah offering, this is the Olah which burns upon it's fire upon the mizbeach – all night, until the morning – and the fire of the mizbeach will be ignited upon it" [Vayikra 6:2]

If the Torah tells us that the fire must be kept burning all night – why remind us that this mes until the morning ? Surely this repetitive phrase is meant to teach us something.

Two ideas come to mind, especially in light of the obvious symbolism of the fire upon the mizbeach to the dedication we have 'burning' in our hearts in our own dedication to the service of Hashem.

First, we must realize that as difficult as it is to devote ourselves to the service of Hashem in the 'nighttime', or spiritual low, these periods always herald a bright tomorrow. There may be a time when we feel Hashem distant from us – but know, that He will be felt all the closer for our 'all-night' vigil, when the 'morning' arrives.

Second, however, is an idea that is more obligating than comforting. It's true that the 'morning' of spiritual closeness with Hashem will follow the period of difficulty we have termed 'night'. But, it is our responsibility to keep the fires of dedication burning – '…until the morning' and not even a moment less. We can't claim that since it became difficult to serve Hashem in a metaphorical night we are absolved of the responsibility – rather, we must redouble our dedication in all things spiritual and be prepared to keep at it – until the morning, until circumstances for divine service become easier.

Hatzlacha !!

Looking out for number one

בס"ד

 

When the haggaddah says that if Hashem had not redeemed us from Pharaoh's clutches then we would surely be enslaved there until today.

 

What does this mean ?! That in 2009 we would still be there ?

 

It is referring to what the redemption is all about – freeing ourselves not just from the land of Mitzrayim – but also from the tumah of mitzrayim. We would all still be enslaved to the ideology of Pharaoh in Egypt – namely self worship.

 

When and how are we guilty of this heinous sin of self worship ? Perhaps more frequently than we know.

 

What is our number one priority ? Self or Hashem ? Is doing mitzvos contingent on how I feel or what my mood is ?

 

Since this is such a slippery pit of self aggrandizement – we need constant salvation from it. So every year, no matter how wise, or how knowledgeable we are – we still repeat the story and miracles of the redemption from Egypt – because it is precisely this reminder that will serve as our booster shot – against the terrible infection of self worship.

 

May it be Hashem's will, that just as we were redeemed from bondage in Nissan – so too may we be redeemed again, and celebrate this Pesach in the hills of Yerushalayim, in the courtyard of the rebuilt temple, amen.

Hatzlacha !!

Are clothes more than just frostbite prevention ?

"ועשית בגדי קדש לאהרן אחיך לכבוד ולתפארת"

[שמות כח:ב]

"And you shall make Holy Garments for Aharon, your brother, for honor and splendor"

[Shemos 28:2]

These garments played two contradictory roles in the upcoming days. On shabbos we read how they represented the weighty and honored position of being the chief representative of the Jewish nation in their mission of attaining closeness to G-d in holiness and purity. And on purim we will read how Achashverosh wore them at his banquet of revelry to demonstrate his supremacy over the fallen Jewish nation.

A greater contrast could hardly be imagined.

Aharon, paragon of humility, actually had to be persuaded to wear the holy garments for he was wary of becoming entranced by the glitter and succumbing to the pull of haughtiness. Achashverosh, on the other hand, embraces this agenda heartily and goes on a campaign of self aggrandizement that begins when he copies the legendary throne of Shlomo Hamelech and pinnacles at his impersonation of the kohen gadol.

So do clothes make the man ? Certainly not. Rather, man either fills the shoes he's given to wear – or slides around in them looking all the more ridiculous for his attempts at impersonation.

Let us strive to be worthy carriers of our clothing – to truly embody the ideals of the bnei torah that we appear to be. And in this zchus may we merit to once again, see the Kohein Gadol in his splendor in the rebuilt Beis HaMikdash, Amen.

Hatzlacha !!

Growth and Immutability

R' Shimshon Raphael Hirsch points out that the menorah is the only one of the major vessels that contains no wood. Paradoxically, the menorah is the only vessel to resemble a growing object ( with it's trunk and branches - the menorah resembles a tree ). What can we learn from this ?

Regarding the absence of wood in the menorah, R' Hirsch comments that this is an integral fact in our understanding of the torah ( which is what the menorah's light represents ).  The torah, being Hashem's wisdom, is immutable and unchanging. It doesn't go in or out of style and is not subject to the whimsy of fads and trends. Only once we accept this truth can we move forward in our study of the torah. 

Perhaps this is why the menorah is shaped like a tree. Because once we recognize the unchanging nature of the torah, and devote ourselves to it's study - then we ourselves will embark on a journey of growth.  There is always room for development and evolution - but only with the understanding that the growth is within us - we are the ones advancing and the unchanging torah is the vehicle.

As an analogy - when I view a masterpiece from far away - it seems simple and unimpressive. The closer I look and the more expertise I develop - the more wowed I'll be. The masterpiece has not changed - I have.

May we all merit to continue to be nurtured into our own mighty and stately trees - with our roots drinking firmly from the waters of the unchanging torah.

Hatzlacha !!

Perceptions

"וגר לא תלחץ ואתם ידעתם את נפש הגר כי גרים הייתם בארץ מצרים"

[ [ספר שמות כג:ט

 "And you shall not oppress a stranger for you know the feelings of a stranger for you were strangers in the land of Egypt"

[Shemos 23:9]

 Do we need a reason or justification to observe Hashem's mitzvos ? Even more so, is it thinkable that we wouldn't e commanded in this mitzvah if we wouldn't have the negative experience of the Egyptian exile in our national past ?!

 This passuk actually comes on the heels of the warning against accepting bribes. The reason that a bribe is assur is that it will alter your perception and render you unable to distinguish wrong from right.

 The mitzvah of consideration of the ger is similar in that it makes a difference what your perception is. One who has never been a ger wouldn't necessarily feel the acute pain of the forbidden oppression. With the proper perspective however, we can feel the appropriate empathy.

 We can also use this idea to help us get through difficult times. Perhaps the reason that Hashem is sending these trials our way is so we can empathize with our fellow man when he is struck with nisayon. 

Hatzlacha !!

Happiness Redefined

"ויחד יתרו על כל הטובה אשר עשה השם לישראל אשר הצילו מיד מצרים"

ספר שמות פרק יח 

"Yisro was gladdened by all of the good that Hashem did for Israel, that He saved them from the hands of Egypt"

[Shemos 18:9]

Why was Yisro so happy that Hashem saved the Jews from the hands of Egypt, per se ? Certainly the operative function was the salvation of the oppressed - from whomever it is that is oppressing them ?! 

With this Yisro teaches us a new meaning of happiness. It isn't just about the redemption of the downtrodden and the new light and hope that is coming to them - it's also about the punishment and destruction that are the deserved lot of those who abuse their power and flout G-d's will. 

Happiness, therefore, is a sort of fulfilment - a righting of wrongs, on both sides of the equation, that sets the world back in a shape where the hand of Hashem is more clearly seen.

May we be zocheh to the ultimate happiness with the final redemption, and see all of Bnei Yisrael's - and therefore Hashem's - enemies punished swiftly and justly, bimhaira beyameinu, amen.

Hatzlacha !!

There's No Place Like Home

BS"D

 "...אל יצא איש ממקומו ביום השבת" [16:29 שמות]

 "…no man shall leave his place on the Sabbath day" [Shemos 16:29]

 This is the reason the Torah gives for the prohibition of collecting the manna on Shabbos, because we would have to leave the camp, violating the issur of tchum shabbos. Additionally, there was no need to collect, since Hashem had doubled the bounty on Friday.

 The Sefas Emes quotes from the Arizal that the word 'place' is also an allusion to Hashem, who is known as מקומו של עולם. The reason that Hashem is referred to as 'hamakom' is that everything rests on something, usually that which is beneath it, so in some way – the place where you are is what's supporting you. And what supports that ? Hashem. So in His name of 'hamakom', Hashem is the ultimate supporter.

 So it is supremely fitting that regarding Shabbos Hashem is referred to as such and that this parsha deals with the role of man's sustenance. When the Torah tells us that on Shabbos we should not go and collect the manna – it is because on Shabbos we should not leave our place. During the week we must put in our hishtadlus, effort, to receive our daily bread – on Shabbos, though, we need zero effort because we are already basking within the domain of the Sustainer of All, the 'place' upon which we all rest, Hashem.

 Let us use this upcoming Shabbos (and all subsequent ones) to appreciate and fully realize the tremendous gift that is a day spent wholly in the embrace of Hashem, a day when we are exempt from our worldly pursuits. It is a huge privilege, but also an equally august responsibility as shown by the prohibition of leaving the 'makom.' . 

Hatzlacha !!

Miserliness Is In The Eye Of The Beholder

Yosef is given a very unique beracha –

[בראשית מט:כב]"בן פורת יוסף, בן פורת עלי עין..."

"A son with charm is Yosef, a charming son who catches the eye …"[Bereishis 49:22]

This beracha is not only physical beauty (of which Yosef had in spades) but that he would have charm – or that he would be pleasing in the eyes of his beholder.

 

How did Yosef merit this ?

 

The answer is twofold. We may have thought that Yosef is given this because he himself struggles to see the positive in everyone – this would certainly conform to current ideas on charm, in which a charming person is someone who always has a ready compliment or pleasant observation. But this is clearly not the case. Yosef is entrusted with the power of pleasing sight specifically because he has demonstrated an appreciation for the other side, the negative power of sight.

 

Yosef, at the tender age of six, sees the leering looks that his uncle Esav directs at a beauty like his mother, Rochel, and immediately moves to block him. "That isn't appreciation", he thinks, "that is an appropriation" – it's as if Esav is actually violating that beauty by wanting to possess it. This is a negative application of sight.

 

The next demonstration of Yosef's sensitivity in this area comes some years later when the wife of Potifar petitions him with her amorous advances. Yosef not only refuses – but realizes that even gazing at her beauty would be a violation of the trust that his master has placed in him.

Only someone who has reached such high levels of sensitivity to the possible destructive powers of sight, and a heroic self control of the same, would be granted freedom from the dominion of these same powers.

And us ? Whether we are descendents of Yosef or not, we can all learn from his example – appreciate the harm that negative sight can bring and aspire to the extraordinary levels of shemiras einayim (guarding of the eyes) that Yosef was able to reach.

Hatzlacha !!

An Inner Fire

When fire was created on the first Motzaei Shabbos it represented a collaboration of man and G-d. Prior to sinning in Gan Eden, man would not have needed any external indicator of light - he himself would glow. But following his mistake - man was lost in the darkness - without some external light to direct him. Fire was Hashem's gift to man - because once given to him, man could recreate it at will.

There is also a subtle reminder of the metaphorical darkness that man was subject to ( following his sin and the introduction of confusion into the world ). Wherever a flame burns - it will always point upwards. In whatever state of uncertainty and lack of direction we may find ourselves - all we need do is light a candle, and it will point the way we need to turn, heavenward.

Perhaps this is why the flame, more than any other aspect of the restored temple service, was privileged to bear the miracle that would mark the holiday of Chanukah. Because in their own way, the Chashmonaim were already marching to it's light - doing what was right in the face of, and despite, all opposition. The flames of the menorah simply brought down to earth the fire that led those true to Hashem in the period of Hellenistic darkness.

May we merit to march to the light of an unwavering candle, and may the physical manifestation, the holy menorah, be relit again, speedily and in our days, amen.

Fight, Fight, Fight !

When the Torah tells us that Yaakov Avinu fought with an angel – we must ask ourselves, what was he fighting for, or against ?

The Medrash explains that this was the personal, guardian angel of Esav, whom Yaakov was due to meet in the morning. The Medrash, elaborates, however, that Esav had the distinct privilege of having as a 'guardian' angel – Samael or Satan. As to what they were fighting about – well – Samael, explains the Kli Yakar, is derived from the Aramaic word לסמא meaning to blind. Samael was attempting to blind Yaakov Avinu to the presence of G-d in this world.

How did Samael think that he could persuade a tzaddik of Yaakov's caliber that there is no G-d ? By rolling around in the dust – or the dust of Lashon Hara. When slander is used ( literal mudslinging as it were ) then we are inclined to let it's insidious influence penetrate, no matter how absurd.

So how does Yaakov emerge victorious from this encounter ? When the dawn of clarity and light comes up. And what is Samael's parting shot ? Yaakov's thigh – an allusion to his offspring. Yaakov Avinu won't fall for this ploy but of his children there will be those who do.

How can we overcome this challenge, the challenge to see the divine hand of goodness in everything despite the mudslinging of the Satan ? Like Yaakov – wait and see the dawning of a new day. Both literally and figuratively – when we experience the miracle that is renewal ( from the minutiae like a new day to the incredible like the birth of a child ) we are once again connected with the source of all renewal – The Source of All Good. Hashem.

Hatzlacha !!

Mine Mine Mine - It's All Mine !!

If there is one striking difference between the wicked Lavan and the humble Yaakov it would be this, taking credit.

After twenty years of hard labor and, arguably the first fertility clinic in the world ( for sheep ) Yaakov amasses great wealth. By his own admission, he was on call round the clock and always took responsibility for any loss. Nothing was chalked up to “normal wear and tear”. Even the proliferation of livestock, at which he worked quite diligently, he describes as having been given to him by Hashem [ see Bereishis 30:9-12]. Yaakov epitomizes the middah of realizing that all comes from Hashem.

Lavan is a stark contrast. He pays lip service to believing in Hashem ( when he clears the house of idolatry in order to host Eliezer ) and even pretends to value other peoples contributions [ see Bereishis 29:15 ]. But the real Lavan comes oozing to the surface when he chases Yaakov and Co. down after their hasty departure. He says, “Your wives - are mine, your children – mine, your wealth – mine … everything you have you got from me” [Bereishis 31:43]. What is the defining principle of Lavan’s wickedness ? Not the desire for pleasure, and not the desire for honor ( he has those in spades, though ) But the driving force behind his Lavan’ness – is him, just him. He is so self centered that the world revolves around him and all the good that happens must be because of him.

This is a powerful lesson for us as to the extent that self centeredness can reach. I can cheat my friend with impunity if all I care about is my end of the bargain. I can even worship idols – because after all the important thing is how they make me feel.

Let us take this shabbos of serious contrast between the selflessness of Yaakov and the selfishness of Lavan to look inside ourselves and chase away any semblance of egocentrism.

Hatzlacha !!

Whose Bracha Is It Anyway ?

One of the most perplexing things about the episode of the brachos that Yitzchak gives Yaakov is the seeming bit of trickery that needs to be employed by Yaakov in order to receive them.

One of Eisav’s little dishonesties was pretending to be righteous. Specifically, says the medrash, that he would garner his father’s approval by asking him nonsensical questions in halacha and misleed Yitzchak into thinking that he was scholarly and pious. Interestingly, this action is referred to by the passuk as entrapping his father with his mouth [Bereishis 25:28]. So Eisav is basically encroaching on Yaakov’s koach and using it in a fundamentally Eisav-like fashion – to lie. This is what leads Yitzchak to believe that Eisav is worthy of the brachos.

Therefore, the True and Fair Judge decrees that Yaakov should reverse this process in order to merit his father’s brachos. Yaakov uses his hands to slaughter sheep and present food to his father. The torah even emphasizes this when Yitzchak proclaims, after feeling Yaakov’s dressed up hands, “see this is my son Eisav”. Yaakov must use two of Eisav’s traits, lying and the power of the hands, to undue the cosmic damage done by his brother – and thusly merit the brachos.

Hatzlacha !!

A Blessing In Disguise ?

When Lavan sees that nothing will dissuade his sister, Rivka, from following Eliezer back to Canaan – he gives her an interesting beracha.

“May you have thousands of descendants and may your children defeat their enemies”
[Bereishis 24:60]

This is the same Lavan who will later attempt to cheat Yaakov out of 20 years worth of salaries. The same one who was so completely selfish as to chase down Eliezer just to find his money – where does he get the altruism to offer a beracha ?

Answer is – he doesn’t. Lavan’s beracha is actually a parting shot – a spiteful, hateful interjection that is perfectly in line with Lavan’s character. When Rivka is offered a ‘way out’ of her father’s ( and brother’s ) household – Lavan feels jealous and threatened – his sister should be there to do his bidding, period – and if she is to marry – let the groom come here ! When Rivka shows her determination to leave immediately Lavan attempts to sow within her mind the seeds of his own malcontent. As Rashi [ad. Loc.] points out – his beracha for the descendents was that they come from Rivka and not another wife. His ‘beracha’ – if we can still call it that – reads more like this –

“Hope you don’t play second fiddle to some other wife and that your kids don’t all die out in wars !”

Clearly, we can see Lavan has nothing but his own selfish grudges in mind.

And us ? Well – presumably we aren’t as spiteful as Lavan ( Chas VeShalom ! ) but everyone could use another perspective on their comments – before we say something – think – will it come out as we mean it ? Or will it be a ‘beracha’ that is really jealousy or pettiness in disguise ?

Hatzlacha !!

Are We The Eyes and Ears Of Hashem ?

When Hashem commands Avram to enter with Him into a covenant He changes his name as well. Avram becomes Avraham.

Rashi, quoting the gemara in nedarim [32b], points out that before the bris Avraham was lacking (control or holiness of) five limbs - two eyes, two ears and the male organ. With the bris, Avraham increased these five limbs and had to correspond with an extra "ה" in his name.

What does having a bris milah have to do with the ears and eyes ?

A bris is not just circumcision - elective surgery performed for comfort or health. A bris is a sign - a declaration that we are allied to, and servants of, Hashem.

As servants we see things differently – not just in terms of how they will affect us – but rather, how will they affect all of our interests – which are really our master's interests. We even hear things differently. What might have been a benign comment becomes a malicious slight if the honor of my Master is involved.

The challenge for us is obvious – we have one aspect of the bris milah. But have we really fixed our other limbs ? Do we see things in terms of the chillul or kiddush Hashem that they will cause ? And our ears ? When we hear of an idea or goal that is antithetical to Torah does it sound wrong ? Or perhaps, do we have to make a conscious decision that it is wrong ?

IY"H we will all affirm our covenant with Hashem to the point that what we see and what we hear will reflect not only our choice to serve G-d but also our status as current servants of Hashem.

Hatzlacha !!.

The Folly Of Man

One of the generations that are mentioned in the Torah bears the curious name of Enosh, or mankind. It was in his day, the Torah tells us, that man had begun to "call out in the name of G-d" [see Bereishis 4:26]

Why did man only now begin to pray to G-d ? Didn't Adam daven to Hashem for forgivness of his sin. Didn't Cain walk the land fasting and begging repentenence for his sin ? The passuk can certainly not be understood on a simplistic level.

Rashi says that the simple reading of the word "הוחל" as "begun" is incorrect and it should be understood rather as a term of desecration "חילול". The Targum Onkelos reads it as a beginning - a beginning of the mistaken saga of idolatry - of ascribing to helpless, worthless items power that belongs only to G-d.

Either way, it is supremely poignant to note that this occurs during the generation named for Enosh. This could be the Torah's way of telling us that this is to be a lifelong battle of the condition of mankind - the challenge to overcome typical human shortsightedness and see through to the original and supreme cause of al the occurs - Hashem.

Hatzlacha !!

Good Kvittel !

The seforim kedoshim speak about the process of judgment that occurs during the month of Tishrei. On Rosh Hashanna we are judged and on Yom Kippur the judgment is sealed. But there is still some aspect of judgment that is held over until Hoshaana Rabba. This is metaphorically referred to as a "pitka tava" or a 'good note'. The imagery being that the books of life are still out and even though your judgment has already been sealed – you can still add a postscript. Therefore, we daven for Hashem to add a favorable kvittel or note to our judgment.

According to the baalei mussar, however, the inscription in the book of life - or more correctly the book of righteous versus the book of the wicked – is not written by Hashem – but rather by ourselves. Our judgment is based on the choices we make for the future – we choose which book we want to be in – and the rest of the year is the follow up. With that in mind – how do we understand the 'kvittel' or postscript ?

Perhaps it can be understood as a page marker. When we lose our place in the book of the righteous – when we know what we want to do, overall, but have forgotten how to make that specifically happen – that is when we would need a page marker or a pointer to refocus our efforts.

On Hoshaana Raaba we take an extra bundle of five aravos and beat them against the floor. Instead of the bundle of all four species – which represent all types of Jews ( scholars, righteous and regular ) – we make a point of taking the simplest species that has no taste and bears no fruit. This statement is our 'page marker', our reminder that no matter how much we have accomplished – we should not lose focus and get carried away by images of grandeur – we should maintain proper humility which will enable us to remember our proper place and the service which we perform.

Good Kvittel !

From Whence The Kedusha Came

Why did the simchas beis hashoeva generate such a tremendous happiness ?

The water that was poured onto the mizbeach in the nisuch hamayim ceremony was poured into one of two crevices that, according to the gemara, go all the way down into the depths of the earth. Rav Pinkus, zatzal, opined that this was actually connecting the upper waters ( the rain water that turned into spring water that was drawn for the ceremony ) and the lower waters ( the depths of the earth that the libation went into ). Water is Hashem's way of granting us blessing - as the gemara in taanis says "greater is the day of rainfall than the day of the resurrection of the dead" - the upper waters and lower waters were split during creation and on Succos we reconnect them in an abundant display of Hashem' kindness - this is truly a cause for an unparalleled happiness.

Enjoy !!

Are We Now Locked Out ?

When we daven the final prayer of Yom Kippur we are cognizant of the awesome day's ending and the gates of heaven closing. That is why the tefilla is called "neilah".

The Zohar states that when we shout at the end, "Hashem Hu HaE-lokim" seven times - we are actually breaking through the seven levels of Shamayim and revealing Hashem's presence as exclusive in each one. Alternatively, the shechina, which was palpably present during Yom Kippur and all of the days of awe ( as the passuk states - "... call out to Him when He is near" - those are the aseres ymei teshuva ) is actually retreating into the higher spheres which are its usual domain.

I remember reading in one of the "seforim kedoshim" ( meaning some holy book, the identity of which has long escaped my memory ) that when Hashem locks the gates at the end of Neilah - he is not locking us out - on the contrary ! All that retreating into the heavens is actually just a 'hook' that pulls us with Him ! Hashem may be locking the doors but He is locking us in ! That is why our very next holiday is described as us sitting in the shade of He in Whom We Believe.

May we merit a clear understanding and feeling of being "locked in" with the holy presence and may our entire year reflect this closeness with G-d that we have now acheived.

Hatzlacha !!

The Dangers of Quick Fix Teshuva.

When someone repents there can be many motivations – why am I suddenly doing what's right as opposed to what's wrong ? Among the most classic motives for bettering yourself is suffering, travails – all sorts of negative experiences that 'provoke' us into cleaning up our act. If G-d was not displeased with me, we reason, He would not have made me suffer so. Therefore, since I have clear recognition – or at least clear intention to avoid this suffering in the future – I repent.

In describing such a cycle, the passuk tells us : "And my anger will flare up at them on that day, and I shall leave them and hide My face from them – and they will be consumed [by their troubles] and many evils will find them – and on that day he will say 'behold, it is because my G-d is not in my midst [because I have sinned and turned away from Him] that these calamities have befallen me" [Devarim 31:17]

So why does Hashem proclaim in the next passuk, after man has recognized his sin, that he will then "hide his face" from him and more tragedy will befall him ?

The commentaries offer several possible answers. I would like to offer the following : Just because man has come to recognize deficiencies in his relationship to his creator doesn't mean he's corrected them – on the contrary – he is likely to settle back and congratulate himself for not being blinded by worldliness and physicality. In fact, this 'recognition' is far from the solution to his spiritual demise – it is an exacerbation ! That's why Hashem heaps punishment further upon him – because he has deluded himself that he is already on the road to betterment when he is really firmly entrenched in stagnation.

How can we avoid this faux teshuva ? Pitfalls await at every turn – especially for such a lofty goal as repentance. Our recourses are two : Firstly, be wary of the 'quick fix' teshuva, don't be lulled into a sense that once you've decided to clean up your act you are on G-d's good list – you're not , not yet - at least not until you begin to follow through. Secondly, pray. Pray a lot. Ask Hashem for assistance, not only in returning to him but also in making that return something deep and meaningful and real – not just superficial and perfunctory.

With Hashem's help, may we all merit to see our errors and only then begin the real work of correcting them and ourselves and being the kind of Jews we can be.

Gmar Chasima Tova to all and …

Hatzlacha !!

Turnabout IS fair play !

So why do we blow 100 blasts ? To confuse the Satan. [see Gemara Rosh HaShanna 16b]

How exactly do we confuse the master of confusion himself ? After all, we don't intend to sin - usually. It's just that the satan manages to sufficiently befuddle our mind. He weaves promises of success, redemption or salvation that seem more real to us at the time of the sin than the real promises that Hashem has given us if we do his commandments - that's why we sinned in the first place ! So how do we turn the tables on him ?

By charging down the door of the courtroom.

When we have done wrong, the last thing we are anxious to do is get called on it. We are guilty - why suffer through the ignonimity of being reprimanded. It's not like a court case where I believe I can win - in those I'll be eager to get there - to see justice done ( my justice, of course ). But here, I am guilty - so, no hurry, I know what's coming - a reprimand that will usually leave me speechless. I have no defense.

It is specifically this head-hanging, shamefaced posture that the Satan ( who is also G-d's DA and chief prosecuter ) loves to exploit. He'll grandstand and proclaim your guilt, and what's worse, your attempts at evasion of justice. But if we charge down the courtroom door - if we summon the crowds and bang the gavel ourselves ( the blowing of the shofar resembles both ) the Satan is left without his great speech. And Hashem is able to listen to the angel for the defense and judge us favorably.

May we all merit a favorable judgment and have a year filled with only blessing and sweetness in our service of G-D, Amen.

Hatzlacha !!

New and Improved Or The Same Great Taste You Remember ?

In life, we sometimes want it all. New, improved, exciting – not like all that old worn out stuff. Or maybe we are tired of gimmicks and promises. We want reliability, the same classic quality that you can depend on. Perhaps we really want them both ?

When Moshe tells the Jewish people that they are "Nitzavim" standing rigidly and unbendingly before G-d – what does he hint at ? How is this supposed to be a positive reassurance ? Isn't it a negative thing to be stagnant ? Why would I want to know that I am standing in the same place that I was before – shouldn't I always be moving onwards and upwards ?

The answer is no.

We really need both. To be mobile and fluid, and to be rock-solid. The reliability of staid and ancient – right alongside the flexibility and refreshed spirits of the new and original.
When we feel like things in this communications driven world may be spinning too fast and we have no anchor – realize that we are still Nitzavim, still standing in the same place we always are, in the presence of – and in covenant with – Hashem.

The Big Picture

ספר דברים פרק כו : טו
השקיפה ממעון קדשך מן השמים וברך את עמך את ישראל ואת האדמה אשר נתתה לנו כאשר נשבעת לאבתינו ארץ זבת חלב ודבש:

רבינו בחיי על דברים פרק כו: טו
וכן דרשו רז"ל אמר ר' חנינא בר פפא בוא וראה כמה גדול כחן של מתנות עניים, שכל השקיפה שבתורה לרעה וכאן לברכה:

In the final capstone of the formula we say when we declare our Maaser obligations all paid up, we implore Hashem to gaze down from the heavens and send blessing to us and our land. Chazal point out that the term "hashkifa" or gaze is never found in the torah in a positive framework, other than now. The fact that we now ask Hashem to gaze down upon us shows us the positive power of tzedaka ( because we have just gotten finished declaring that we have given all of our maaser – to poor people who deserved it ).

Why does Hashem's 'gaze' indicate divine displeasure or punishment, and how exactly does tzedaka change that ?

When we refer to gazing down – we are talking about the 'big picture', the overview – a kind of analysis of how a society is doing, in a general sense. This is the term used by the Torah when it describes the condemnation of Sodom [see Bereshis 19:28]. This is also the term used to describe Hashem's gaze onto the Egyptian war camp before He kills them all in the Yam Suf [see Shemos 14:24]. In both these cases, any individual acts were overlooked in favor of the ‘big picture,’ the general state of affairs. The people of Sodom were killed because they collectively promoted a society of selfishness and cruelty – not because of the actions of each one (even though their individual actions were indeed cruel and selfish). The same holds true for the Egyptians – we even see that they the individuals had differing levels of culpability and that's why they died at different rates in the waters [see Shemos 15:5 and Rashi ad loc.] – but the common denominator was their participation in the oppressive society – and that was sufficient to condemn them all to death.

So how does tzedaka change this ? Well, in this pasuk we are referring to a very specific type of tzedaka – tzedaka on a societal scale. This isn't something I do when I feel like it – nor is it something that some do and others don't – this is a society-wide phenomenon, to make sure that those less fortunate are taken care of. Here it is specifically the wide view, the overall analysis which shows us how great this mitzva is. My apple tree may only have yielded three bushels – which translates into only a handful of apples for the needy – but if we 'gaze' down at the whole community and see that the needy can get a few apples from me and some wheat from my neighbor and some vegetables from the guy down the block …. Well, that really is powerful.

And how does that change our life ? Two ways.

One: don't discount your own small mitzvos. Don't believe that your little chassadim or your two moments of Torah ( like the amount of time you spent reading this dvar Torah ) are not very significant – au contraire ! They are actually the pinpricks of color that combine to form a beautiful canvas !

Two: learn to appreciate the small acts of kindness that others do – try to see them in a ‘mitzvah overview gaze’ and not a gaze of negativity.

Hatzlacha !!

For Whom The Gavel Pounds

The Torah enjoins us to make timely payment to any day laborer we may seek to employ [see Devarim 24:15]. If we do not, says Hashem, then the laborer in question will call out to Me and I will address the issue personally – and you will be in the wrong. We know that Hashem's courtroom does not need an initial complaint to be filed in order to mete out justice – why does the passuk stress the 'calling out' of laborer ?

Rashi, quoting the Sifri, tells us that whether or not there is a cry of helplessness, Hashem will punish the wrongdoer. If there is a cry, however, He will be quicker to punish.

This still leaves us in a quandary ! The laborer's cry is still a factor in deciding Hashem's justice – isn't He objective and fair ?

Perhaps we may say that there is an objective factor in all this. When you withhold money from it's rightful owner – you are in violation of a monetary law. If you cause your fellow man any pain, however, you are in violation of the principles of compassion – which we are obligated to keep with no less stringency than the principles of monetary ownership.

So if the laborer cries out – we have hurt him to a greater degree than if he does not. It is only just and fitting that Hashem should seek to redress this issue sooner – for it isn't just about money – rather it is also about the well being of one of His children – and that takes the highest priority.

In these days of personal improvement and introspection we are constantly on the lookout for an 'edge' – what will give us the ability to really do teshuva ? Perhaps we need to increase our awareness of our fellow man – not just a consideration for his possessions but also for how his feelings are affected by our actions.

Hatzlacha !!