Friday, August 15, 2008

Are You Carrying A Greater Burden Than You Realize ?

When Moshe Rabbeinu reviews with the people the last 38 years in the desert, he also recounts his own personal saga regarding his denied entrance into Eretz Yisrael. When describing Hashem's displeasure with his actions Moshe Rabbeinu uses a very particular appelation :

" ... ויתעבר ד' בי " [Devarim 3:26 ]

Literally, "And Hashem was impregnated (with anger) towards me ..."

When we are angry we actually create this alter ego of anger within us. We carry it around, and nurture it until it explodes into being with ferocity and spite. Anger can be a sudden lash out but it can also be this slow, growth process. This second type is more dangerous - since we aren't currently expressing our anger we may feel that we have conquered it, only to be rudely awakened when it is "born" in a future confrontation.

Yet another lesson in life that Moshe Rabbeinu includes in the "mussar shmooze of a lifetime".

Additionally, this parsha is always read directly after Tishaa Bav - perhaps this is a subtle reminder from Moshe Rabbeinu on how to fix the sinaas chinam that made Tishaa Bav into a tragic day. And once we conquer the anger within us and merit to serve Hashem with our whole hearts ( also in this week's parasha - see Shema ) we will merit to build for Him a temple in our hearts - and soon a physical temple in His Holy City - bimheira beyameinu, amen.

Hatzlacha !!

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