Echoes of Return

The Ohr Hachaim Hakadosh details for us two paths to Teshuva - each one bearing evidence of the supreme kindness that Hashem has does for us when He accepts our teshuva.

The first - Teshuva through suffering.

If we are 'afflicted' with any form of suffering ( ranging from a minor inconvenience - like not having any change for a parking meter - to serious wrath-of-G-d type stuff ) it's our cue to stand up and say "I have sinned - please return me to you, Hashem". We may be convinced that our 'sorry' isn't worth much - after all G-d did have to force it out of us - not so, says the Ohr Hachaim Hakadosh, this is what punishments were created for - and therefor the proper outcome of such punishments is the teshuva process.

The second - Teshuva through blessing.

This mode of teshuva is perhaps harder to come by but yields a much more substantial outcome. When one repents as a result of suffering - there is always the small nagging feeling ( even to the penitent himself ) that it was done merely to spare himself the next blow. If one focuses on Hashem's blessings to us, says the Ohr Hachaim Hakadosh, we can achieve a teshuva which will bring us closer to Hashem. In this mode we aren't running away from negative circumstances into the arms of G-d - we are actually running straight at them with an overwhelming feeling of appreciation. So next time something good happens ( even the smallest thing - like having correct change for the parking meter ) realize all the blessings that Hashem showers down upon us and resolve to try to get even closer to Him in the coming year.

Hatzlacha !