Wednesday, March 19, 2008

On The Cusp Of Indecision

Whenever we see the longest trup in the Torah, the shalsheles, there is a message to be learnt.

The Torah was given on Har Sinai with the specific notes that we read it with. These aren't just for emphasis - they actually teach us proper punctuation and meaning of the words.

The longest note - the shalsheles - consists of complete scales, rising to a high note and then plunging back down, three times.

What is the message of the shalsheles ?

Whenever we see it it represents a great moment of indecision. The musical embodiment of the back and forth turmoil of the undecided mind. We see it with Lot when he must leave Sodom and we see it with Yosef when he is contemplating succumbing to the wiles of Potifar's wife.

What then, is it doing in the parasha of the inauguration of the kohanim [ see Vayikra 8:23 ] ? What indecision applies here ?

The slaughtering of the last of the inaugural sacrifices and the ritual that followed - the dipping of the right earlobe, thumb and toe of the kohanim - was the final confirmation of their status. When this was complete they would no longer be like other men. The kohanim would be allowed access to a greater holiness - but in exchange they would be commeasurably seperate from the rest of the world. A positive spiritual exile - afforded the view from the peak, with the lonliness that attends it. Their indecision is reflected in the shalsheles.

And what of us ? The Chofetz Chaim is quoted as having said that the reason that his "zayde" was a kohen was that his "zayde" answered Moshe Rabbeinu's call of "מי לד אלי""Who is for Hashem - to me !" - and that there would come a time that that call would once again echo.

We learn from the shalsheles that's it's ok to waver in indecision - and we also learn that the choice to be sanctified lies within us. Will we shy away from holiness and the 'pleasures' that a holy life denies us ? Or will we step up to the challenge - and answer "I am for Hashem !"

Hatzlacha !!

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